Walk In Angel's Shoes

  I just finished exercising. My final Shred for the day :). I have to admit that I'm already starting to get super sore and it's effecting my performance. Lifting weights repeatedly when your muscles are tender is agonizing but I just keep thinking of toned arms, tight booty, small thighs and abs. It keeps me going and I feel wonderful when I'm done. I'm finally accomplishing my goals. Finally doing something beneficial. The pain is only temporary.

  In reality, I've done seven days of level one so that explains my sore muscles. A normal person would have accepted my lazy day in which I didn't exercise as a "rest" day but I just couldn't do that. It has to be perfect. In order. I need to see 30 consecutive days highlighted on the calendar. 30 days proving that I am strong, determined. 30 days closer to my goal. 

  I slept all day, worked for a few hours later in the evening, so my day was pretty boring. I'm hoping that by going to bed early tonight I will be able to get back into being awake during the day. I need to. I've just got to get my life  ...click here to read more

Walk In Angel's Shoes

  I am in a wonderful mood! My boyfriend's mother and her snooty comments haven't even gotten to me today. I mean... yesterday's remark still bothers me. "Oh wow you CAN count to 100!" Pff, coming from the woman who says the stupidest shit on a daily bases. Like bitch fuck you! I can count to 100 in three different languages >:l  

  Don't get me wrong. I love her and all, but when she talks down to me and tries to make me sound like some childish bitch it gets annoying. She's forever embarrassing me. We went to the pet store to buy my dog and rabbit food a few weeks ago and there were these adorable lion-head rabbits there. I'd never seen them before so I got super excited thinking they were just the cutest things. I wanted to show her and right in front of this lady about the same age as me she said, "Noo! You can't have anymore animals. You already have four!" And of course the lady looked at me like I was a complete retard. FYI... I only own TWO animals. The other two are yours. I understand that we live with her but that gives her no right to treat me like a child. Bitch you don't own me. If I want to buy another animal, walk around in a bikini or drink til dawn damn rights I'm going to.   

  Anyway. After a horrible binge last night, I went to bed earlier than normal (4am) in hopes of being awake during "normal people" ...click here to read more

Walk In Angel's Shoes

  Okay, so maybe falling back into the groove of blogging will take a little more effort then I thought. It seemed so easy the last time we had our blog up and running... but I suppose it WAS easier because of the job I had which allowed me to be on the Internet 14 hours a day. Oh well, I've just got to get back into a routine. Anyway... sorry I haven't posted in a week. I didn't even realize it had been that long!

  Talking about posting ... yea, about my last update. How depressing was that?! I don't even remember what put me in that depressive state of mind. Half of the stuff I was talking about made no sense. I mean, my boyfriend and I DO spend time together. Every weekend is our time. And last week they switched his work schedule down to Mon-Thurs so we'll even get Friday nights together. Throw snowballs? Oh jeez...

  Hm, I guess I will start with last Tuesday. I received my hair extensions in the mail!!! Yay! I was waiting for weeks! Though they're a bit long, I love them! And now I'm planning on dying my hair brown because the blonde and hair extensions just looks fake in my opinion. Brown will be a nice change and maybe then my hair could rest a bit and actually grow. Due to the constant bleaching and dying my hair keeps breaking off therefor instead of growing it just keeps getting shorter and shorter. A scary ...click here to read more

A Look In The Life Of Edie


Worked out today and it was fabulous! I went earlier this morning hoping to beat the crowd. And thankfully, no one was there except a few older gentlemen. Yesterdays workout was awesome as well but today I did the ellipitical, the bike and of course jogged. It was great and I feel like Im getting so much more in shape. I can see muscles forming!!

I have this cute sports-bra thats teal and looks so cute. And especially since my abs are forming into beautifulness I may actually wear just that with my running pants to the gym. Well....eventually. I'm a bit modest and I def don't want a repeat of the first day at the gym to happen. No one be talking about me and what Im wearing. Idk yet, but I think it would be nice to one day go in there all toned and healthy looking and just feel satisfied about my body. :)

So, rereading my yesterday post, I must apologize. I am not the prettiest girl in my state. I can't believe I was so arrogant and stuck up to even post that. I know Im pretty but to make the claim I'm the prettiest is a lil far fetched. Ill let a judge decide first lol! Also, I must apologize for being so bitchy. Its just when I get super hungry and don't want to eat and have my family saying "eat this, eat that" all day long, I get aggravated. And of course trying to real my ultimate goal sooner than later doesn't help. I wish I could be there now!!!

In grocery shopping news, I got these OMG yummi Kashi bars with dark chocolate and coconut on top, omg omg omg there are so good. Low sodium, low fat, low cal-120 and are delicious. I've totally hanged up my fruits and vegies eating plan to incorporate grains like granola. I've also been having yogurt with granola in the morning, a granola for snack before gym time, then afternoon snack is an apple and a boiled egg, dinner-vegies and something with protein---thats only 2 nights a week (for example I had spinach and 2oz of salmon tonight broiled cause thats the healthiest) and for evening snack I munch on frozen grapes or some other fruit or snappeas or broccoli. And from doing all that and switching from just fruits and vegies I've managed to stay on track with my weight and still feel refreshed. Still eating under 700 calories though so at least Im not stuffing myself endlessly. Just feel up on granola.

Boiled eggs are so awesome! They are only 18 calories!!!!!! Without the yolk which is how I prefer them anyways so if you are looking for something to make the tummy stop growling and to actually feel you up without eating that much calorie intake...boiled eggs. Dude, they are insane! I don't eat more than 3 a day. Thats the highest I've eaten them, usually its only 1 a day. Boil up 5 or 6 and your set for almost the week :)


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A Look In The Life Of Edie

I meant to write in here sooner but I have just been so exhausted. Where to begin!? The day of my birthday from where we left off, I frantically checked the scale and thankfully had not gained any weight, Was still at 114lbs. Thank the Lord! Guess the throwing up helped...lol. Anyways, then went to see my boyfriend and he made for dinner homemade fries and other things that I didn't eat. Just some of the fries, which I know are the most weight gaining thing on the planet-Potatoes!- But they were yummy and I had to get something in my system. The following morning, weight was the same.

Oh, forgot to mention how my birthday actually went besides the eating portion. My boyfriend totally took my breathe away and surprised me with wine-which I sipped one glass slowly while he finished 4 beers- and we played board games and cards all night. It was really sweet. I was totally impressed how special he made my night. And then of course the bedroom part was amazing as per usual lol!

The next few days went by as normal. Intake was no more than 600 calories and I was slowly working my way up on signing up to the local gym. I started doing even more tummy exercises and butt lifts. And then by the strangest chance, I got a flyer in the mail from the local gym with a 5 day free pass and 1$ signup for the month coupons. So I took it as a sign and called to make sure I didn't have to pay anything upfront and viola! I went in there 2 days ago and have a week free pass cause the manager lady rocks and after that I will pay only 1$ for the first month. Along with 10$ for the unlimited tanning they have there.

It's great! Now I don't need to worry about tanning anywhere and paying outrageous amount of money, I can just go to my gym! And I have been going there everyday so far, yes Im on the 3rd day but I have been working out for at least 2 hrs each time I go. Its been so much fun and I push myself so hard.

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Walk In Angel's Shoes

 This weekend was the same as always. Sleep all day, party all night. No, I only wish I could. Instead I stay up all night trying to find something productive to do with my time. But in all honesty, what can be at night? So I stayed awake putting some finishing touches on my newest drawing while watching several movies. I hate that drawing... there just wasn't enough time to finish it. I tried to spend time with my boyfriend but he was too preoccupied with his xbox. Which is fine, I just wish we were more spontaneous. I wish we did things as a couple and actually built memories together. How we build the memories, I don't care. Take a drive to no particular destination. Wander the streets. Throw snowballs... anything. 

 I've been feeling down on myself for a while now. Ugly, fat, lonely... a failure at life in general. Of course, this does no justice to my relationship. Constantly in fear of my boyfriends feelings toward me. I wouldn't be surprised if he has lost interest in me. No longer finds me attractive. And the real reason he spends 99% of his free time playing xbox is because ...click here to read more

A Look In The Life Of Edie

So my birthday is tomorrow and my family wanted to celebrate today with my favorite dish-Jambalaya and frozen yogurt cake from TCBY. I usually of course would be excited to enjoy my favs, but with all my hard work...not so much.

The day began with my mom wanting to run errands. We go to the grocery store, target and TCBY and also the mall where I got a cute shirt :) At target my mom says "are you hungry?" I can tell she is so I say "sure". She gets a cinnamon pretzel and orders me a small popcorn.....cause that also use to be a favorite. And yes I've craved popcorn for months now! So I end up eating half of it!!! Looking it up online it says like 168calories but Ill just round to 200calories.

I calculated what my intake from dinner and the slice of cake would be cause I couldn't just not eat it after what my family going through to make this day special. The popcorn included with dinner=totaling 1,085 calories! So I'm pretty much freaking ...click here to read more

Walk In Angel's Shoes

  I'm not sure what it is about me. Maybe I'm too naive or just a curious person. Either way I always seem to be learning something new. And when someone tells me about something that interests me I research it. A little research turns into a night of information pile up and that's what brings me to what I'm going to talk about next... the cinnamon and honey weight loss formula.

  My boyfriend's mom showed me this email that lists all these health benefits of cinnamon and honey. Apparently combining the two and consuming it daily will cure all kinds of illnesses and health issues. It also showed that weight loss formula. Being the curious pug I am, I decided that I would give it a try for a week. Though the taste was good, the consistency turned my stomach instantly and I could only get down about a half cup of the stuff. I'm dreading tomorrows cup but I'm just going to have to push myself through because I really want to know if it works.

  I had planned on fasting this week but that failed. My boyfriend's parents are back into their obsession with fast food and restaurants. It may have taken me a year to figure this out but trying to get out of eating with them after work is literally impossible. Using my awful teeth to my benefit, ...click here to read more

A Look In The Life Of Edie

Worked out today! After re-reading my last post I thought, hmmm, you know what I really should kick up my exercise routine along with my eating plan. So I did the Just Dance 2 for 45 mins which made me sweat non-stop whew! Then moved on the WiiFit and did every single program on there. The hula hoops killed me! :) So a total of almost 2 hrs of exercise today and only 700 calories yeppee!!

Another update on the boyfriend, well he has been acting all weird since I told him Im moving out. Weird being he is acting super sweet. Grr!! Men! I have consented to see him tomorrow which actually will be even better for me to not eat much of anything. He plays tons of tournaments and doesn't spend a whole amount of time around so its easy not to have dinner or whatnot. Anyways, my plan is to only have cranberries, a cup of brown rice and iceberg lettuce.

Today is my only vegie day and it has been fabulous! Had 9 baby carrots for breakfast along with a cup of green tea equaling 35 calories. Lunch 2 cups iceberg lettuce diced up equaling 20 calories. Dinner broccoli equaling 31 calories. Snacking on carrots and a boiled egg-17calories. Wow, writing it out I feel my intake was way more, but oh well. I've been doing the vegies/fruit alternating days for so long now it just seems normal.

Its funny, stepping on the scale today said 115 lbs. but then the Wiifit scale said 114 lbs. so I don't know which one was more accurate since they are both suppose to be the most accurate scales. Either way Im happy with my progress and the fact I've done so well. ...click here to read more

A Look In The Life Of Eddie

Must say it has been far too long for an update and I apologize to all who come here for support, advice and some sense of friendship. No excuses will make up the time lost but I can sure give my all to helping maintain this blog and unconditional support to not only all of you but to my dear friend Angel. xoxoxo

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With that said, let me tell you all what has been happening in my world!

I have been doing so well with pretty much everything. There has been some ups and downs. But for the most part, life has been good for 2012! I am still with my boyfriend, but am in the process of moving out-back home to the parents. I just need a break and to figure things out. Not saying that I don't love him to death but as I am getting older I see the things I want for my life and Im not sure if he is wanting the same things. I definitely don't want this blog to be about my relationship drama, so ...click here to read more

Walk In Angel's Shoes

  Months upon months. Far too long to keep away.

  I couldn't even begin to explain why I stopped blogging. A part of me feels like I owe our readers an explanation but I have yet to come up with one. Our posts from the past years are gone, just as memories fade. I have changed, grown, and it's time for our blog to follow.

  Since my last "appearance" on here, a lot has changed and a lot has stayed the same. I got fired and am now trying to find a career that suits me. The thing that makes it tough is that I have never been the type of person that knows exactly what she wants. I know what I don't want so I guess that's a start. Near the end of 2011 I set out to peruse my love for art. It all started with a simple portrait drawing. Though I thought it was average, not very good, other people begged to differ and slowly I've gained "customers". It still amazes me that people would actually pay me to draw for them. And I can't help but wonder if this is what I was meant to do all along.

  Becoming an artist has its highs and lows. On the positive side, I get to do what I love. On the negative, sometimes I don't enjoy the project. Maybe it's their facial features or the fact that I just can't "connect". Then there comes the time, rare but inevitable, when you're stuck  ...click here to read more