A Look In The Life Of Edie

A Look In The Life Of Edie

March 31, 2012


I am have been sooo tired that I just could not get myself on here to update. I have been doing ok but have hit that awful spot of no gain no loss phase. I need to fast or do something drastic cause I cannot stay at 116lbs. No!


Work has been great, have loved it! My co workers are so funny and fun to be around, the customers are ok and no one has yelled yet. I basically get to sit around all day and answer phones which hardly ring and just twirl my pen around my fingers. LOL. Its nice to get paid for doing nothing but its not good when I want to be super skinny tiny and I don't get to move my body around. So, I have been trying to get my butt in shape at the gym.


Sometimes after work its nice and Im all motivated to move move and move harder and faster. But now and especially today I feel just so tired and can't seem to get that burning desire to go to the gym. There must be something wrong with me. I hope Im not getting sick!


My bf has been driving me crazy! He is so negative and a whiner. Like me today lol! I just do not know what to do with him. He started complaining to me when I was leaving that he only had 5$ to his name. He says " wow 5$ that will be nice to have my daughter this weekend with only f'ing 5$" and looks at me. As if I spent his money. Hello! You go to poker tourneys 2x a week spend 20-40$ at a time and drink 7 nights of the week and go play pool and go to the bar and make dinner for your friends and waste the gas to go see them. Don't be looking at me like I have ever took your money! Gee.


Or maybe he was looking at me cause he wants me to give him money. I have before and Im stupid enough to do it again but theres only so far he can push me. I think thats why my body is so tired feeling. Im just exhausted. Ugh.

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Walk In Angel's Shoes

  I just finished exercising. My final Shred for the day :). I have to admit that I'm already starting to get super sore and it's effecting my performance. Lifting weights repeatedly when your muscles are tender is agonizing but I just keep thinking of toned arms, tight booty, small thighs and abs. It keeps me going and I feel wonderful when I'm done. I'm finally accomplishing my goals. Finally doing something beneficial. The pain is only temporary.

  In reality, I've done seven days of level one so that explains my sore muscles. A normal person would have accepted my lazy day in which I didn't exercise as a "rest" day but I just couldn't do that. It has to be perfect. In order. I need to see 30 consecutive days highlighted on the calendar. 30 days proving that I am strong, determined. 30 days closer to my goal. 

  I slept all day, worked for a few hours later in the evening, so my day was pretty boring. I'm hoping that by going to bed early tonight I will be able to get back into being awake during the day. I need to. I've just got to get my life  ...click here to read more

Before & After

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Walk In Angel's Shoes

  I am in a wonderful mood! My boyfriend's mother and her snooty comments haven't even gotten to me today. I mean... yesterday's remark still bothers me. "Oh wow you CAN count to 100!" Pff, coming from the woman who says the stupidest shit on a daily bases. Like bitch fuck you! I can count to 100 in three different languages >:l  

  Don't get me wrong. I love her and all, but when she talks down to me and tries to make me sound like some childish bitch it gets annoying. She's forever embarrassing me. We went to the pet store to buy my dog and rabbit food a few weeks ago and there were these adorable lion-head rabbits there. I'd never seen them before so I got super excited thinking they were just the cutest things. I wanted to show her and right in front of this lady about the same age as me she said, "Noo! You can't have anymore animals. You already have four!" And of course the lady looked at me like I was a complete retard. FYI... I only own TWO animals. The other two are yours. I understand that we live with her but that gives her no right to treat me like a child. Bitch you don't own me. If I want to buy another animal, walk around in a bikini or drink til dawn damn rights I'm going to.   

  Anyway. After a horrible binge last night, I went to bed earlier than normal (4am) in hopes of being awake during "normal people" ...click here to read more

30 Day Shred - Level 1

  Because I slacked off yesterday (not to mention the poor choices in food and a binge later in the night) I decided to restart my 30 Day Shred exercise program. And because I've also restarted my journal, I thought it would be a great idea to include my progress on our blog! Feel free to join me!

  Jillian Michaels came out with this program and the DVD only costs around $9 - $14. I fell in love with it on day one. It gives you a great butt-kicking and before you know it you're done. Left sprawled out on the floor panting. It has three-20 minute workouts, each harder then the last. The idea is that you take 20 minutes each day to get in a SOLID workout. Apparently you can lose up to 20 pounds in 30 days which is believable seeing as I lost 4 pounds in 5 days last week. 20 pounds would be absolutely wonderful especially with a exercise program that's so easy anyone could follow! Give it a try! What is there to lose?!

  I will be doing this on a daily bases. I'll do it once in the morning and once in the evening. After researching online I was a little upset to see that the average person only burns about 150 - 250 calories during one workout however, the other two levels increase in intensity and offer a greater calorie burn. I don't own a heart-rate monitor so there's no way to tell how many calories I burn but I figure by doing it twice a day I will see better results. You can do it too, I know you can! It's super easy, not even 30 minutes, and I promise it will make you feel great! If I'm feeling extra confident in myself, at the end I will show you my before and after photos! :)

So let's get started with level 1!  

Day 1
9:00am & 10:00 pm  = approx 40 minutes in total.

Weight: 124.9 lb  (lost 2.1)
BMI: 20.3 (down 0.3)

Fat: 25.5 lb  (lost 1.4)
Fat %: 20.5  (down 0.8)
Water Weight: 58%  (up 0.6)


Day 2
6:00am & 9:30 pm  = approx 40 minutes in total.

Weight: 123.9 lb  (lost 1)
BMI: 20.1 (down 0.2)

Fat: 24.3 lb  (lost 1.2)
Fat %: 19.7  (down 0.8)
Water Weight: 58.6%  (up 0.6)

xo, Angel

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Walk In Angel's Shoes

  Okay, so maybe falling back into the groove of blogging will take a little more effort then I thought. It seemed so easy the last time we had our blog up and running... but I suppose it WAS easier because of the job I had which allowed me to be on the Internet 14 hours a day. Oh well, I've just got to get back into a routine. Anyway... sorry I haven't posted in a week. I didn't even realize it had been that long!

  Talking about posting ... yea, about my last update. How depressing was that?! I don't even remember what put me in that depressive state of mind. Half of the stuff I was talking about made no sense. I mean, my boyfriend and I DO spend time together. Every weekend is our time. And last week they switched his work schedule down to Mon-Thurs so we'll even get Friday nights together. Throw snowballs? Oh jeez...

  Hm, I guess I will start with last Tuesday. I received my hair extensions in the mail!!! Yay! I was waiting for weeks! Though they're a bit long, I love them! And now I'm planning on dying my hair brown because the blonde and hair extensions just looks fake in my opinion. Brown will be a nice change and maybe then my hair could rest a bit and actually grow. Due to the constant bleaching and dying my hair keeps breaking off therefor instead of growing it just keeps getting shorter and shorter. A scary ...click here to read more

A Look In The Life Of Edie


Worked out today and it was fabulous! I went earlier this morning hoping to beat the crowd. And thankfully, no one was there except a few older gentlemen. Yesterdays workout was awesome as well but today I did the ellipitical, the bike and of course jogged. It was great and I feel like Im getting so much more in shape. I can see muscles forming!!

I have this cute sports-bra thats teal and looks so cute. And especially since my abs are forming into beautifulness I may actually wear just that with my running pants to the gym. Well....eventually. I'm a bit modest and I def don't want a repeat of the first day at the gym to happen. No one be talking about me and what Im wearing. Idk yet, but I think it would be nice to one day go in there all toned and healthy looking and just feel satisfied about my body. :)

So, rereading my yesterday post, I must apologize. I am not the prettiest girl in my state. I can't believe I was so arrogant and stuck up to even post that. I know Im pretty but to make the claim I'm the prettiest is a lil far fetched. Ill let a judge decide first lol! Also, I must apologize for being so bitchy. Its just when I get super hungry and don't want to eat and have my family saying "eat this, eat that" all day long, I get aggravated. And of course trying to real my ultimate goal sooner than later doesn't help. I wish I could be there now!!!

In grocery shopping news, I got these OMG yummi Kashi bars with dark chocolate and coconut on top, omg omg omg there are so good. Low sodium, low fat, low cal-120 and are delicious. I've totally hanged up my fruits and vegies eating plan to incorporate grains like granola. I've also been having yogurt with granola in the morning, a granola for snack before gym time, then afternoon snack is an apple and a boiled egg, dinner-vegies and something with protein---thats only 2 nights a week (for example I had spinach and 2oz of salmon tonight broiled cause thats the healthiest) and for evening snack I munch on frozen grapes or some other fruit or snappeas or broccoli. And from doing all that and switching from just fruits and vegies I've managed to stay on track with my weight and still feel refreshed. Still eating under 700 calories though so at least Im not stuffing myself endlessly. Just feel up on granola.

Boiled eggs are so awesome! They are only 18 calories!!!!!! Without the yolk which is how I prefer them anyways so if you are looking for something to make the tummy stop growling and to actually feel you up without eating that much calorie intake...boiled eggs. Dude, they are insane! I don't eat more than 3 a day. Thats the highest I've eaten them, usually its only 1 a day. Boil up 5 or 6 and your set for almost the week :)


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A Look In The Life Of Edie

I meant to write in here sooner but I have just been so exhausted. Where to begin!? The day of my birthday from where we left off, I frantically checked the scale and thankfully had not gained any weight, Was still at 114lbs. Thank the Lord! Guess the throwing up helped...lol. Anyways, then went to see my boyfriend and he made for dinner homemade fries and other things that I didn't eat. Just some of the fries, which I know are the most weight gaining thing on the planet-Potatoes!- But they were yummy and I had to get something in my system. The following morning, weight was the same.

Oh, forgot to mention how my birthday actually went besides the eating portion. My boyfriend totally took my breathe away and surprised me with wine-which I sipped one glass slowly while he finished 4 beers- and we played board games and cards all night. It was really sweet. I was totally impressed how special he made my night. And then of course the bedroom part was amazing as per usual lol!

The next few days went by as normal. Intake was no more than 600 calories and I was slowly working my way up on signing up to the local gym. I started doing even more tummy exercises and butt lifts. And then by the strangest chance, I got a flyer in the mail from the local gym with a 5 day free pass and 1$ signup for the month coupons. So I took it as a sign and called to make sure I didn't have to pay anything upfront and viola! I went in there 2 days ago and have a week free pass cause the manager lady rocks and after that I will pay only 1$ for the first month. Along with 10$ for the unlimited tanning they have there.

It's great! Now I don't need to worry about tanning anywhere and paying outrageous amount of money, I can just go to my gym! And I have been going there everyday so far, yes Im on the 3rd day but I have been working out for at least 2 hrs each time I go. Its been so much fun and I push myself so hard.

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Walk In Angel's Shoes

 This weekend was the same as always. Sleep all day, party all night. No, I only wish I could. Instead I stay up all night trying to find something productive to do with my time. But in all honesty, what can be at night? So I stayed awake putting some finishing touches on my newest drawing while watching several movies. I hate that drawing... there just wasn't enough time to finish it. I tried to spend time with my boyfriend but he was too preoccupied with his xbox. Which is fine, I just wish we were more spontaneous. I wish we did things as a couple and actually built memories together. How we build the memories, I don't care. Take a drive to no particular destination. Wander the streets. Throw snowballs... anything. 

 I've been feeling down on myself for a while now. Ugly, fat, lonely... a failure at life in general. Of course, this does no justice to my relationship. Constantly in fear of my boyfriends feelings toward me. I wouldn't be surprised if he has lost interest in me. No longer finds me attractive. And the real reason he spends 99% of his free time playing xbox is because ...click here to read more

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