EdiesAngel

Walk In Angel's Shoes

 This weekend was the same as always. Sleep all day, party all night. No, I only wish I could. Instead I stay up all night trying to find something productive to do with my time. But in all honesty, what can be at night? So I stayed awake putting some finishing touches on my newest drawing while watching several movies. I hate that drawing... there just wasn't enough time to finish it. I tried to spend time with my boyfriend but he was too preoccupied with his xbox. Which is fine, I just wish we were more spontaneous. I wish we did things as a couple and actually built memories together. How we build the memories, I don't care. Take a drive to no particular destination. Wander the streets. Throw snowballs... anything. 

 I've been feeling down on myself for a while now. Ugly, fat, lonely... a failure at life in general. Of course, this does no justice to my relationship. Constantly in fear of my boyfriends feelings toward me. I wouldn't be surprised if he has lost interest in me. No longer finds me attractive. And the real reason he spends 99% of his free time playing xbox is because ...click here to read more