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Walk In Angel's Shoes

  Okay, so maybe falling back into the groove of blogging will take a little more effort then I thought. It seemed so easy the last time we had our blog up and running... but I suppose it WAS easier because of the job I had which allowed me to be on the Internet 14 hours a day. Oh well, I've just got to get back into a routine. Anyway... sorry I haven't posted in a week. I didn't even realize it had been that long!

  Talking about posting ... yea, about my last update. How depressing was that?! I don't even remember what put me in that depressive state of mind. Half of the stuff I was talking about made no sense. I mean, my boyfriend and I DO spend time together. Every weekend is our time. And last week they switched his work schedule down to Mon-Thurs so we'll even get Friday nights together. Throw snowballs? Oh jeez...

  Hm, I guess I will start with last Tuesday. I received my hair extensions in the mail!!! Yay! I was waiting for weeks! Though they're a bit long, I love them! And now I'm planning on dying my hair brown because the blonde and hair extensions just looks fake in my opinion. Brown will be a nice change and maybe then my hair could rest a bit and actually grow. Due to the constant bleaching and dying my hair keeps breaking off therefor instead of growing it just keeps getting shorter and shorter. A scary ...click here to read more

A Look In The Life Of Edie


Worked out today and it was fabulous! I went earlier this morning hoping to beat the crowd. And thankfully, no one was there except a few older gentlemen. Yesterdays workout was awesome as well but today I did the ellipitical, the bike and of course jogged. It was great and I feel like Im getting so much more in shape. I can see muscles forming!!

I have this cute sports-bra thats teal and looks so cute. And especially since my abs are forming into beautifulness I may actually wear just that with my running pants to the gym. Well....eventually. I'm a bit modest and I def don't want a repeat of the first day at the gym to happen. No one be talking about me and what Im wearing. Idk yet, but I think it would be nice to one day go in there all toned and healthy looking and just feel satisfied about my body. :)

So, rereading my yesterday post, I must apologize. I am not the prettiest girl in my state. I can't believe I was so arrogant and stuck up to even post that. I know Im pretty but to make the claim I'm the prettiest is a lil far fetched. Ill let a judge decide first lol! Also, I must apologize for being so bitchy. Its just when I get super hungry and don't want to eat and have my family saying "eat this, eat that" all day long, I get aggravated. And of course trying to real my ultimate goal sooner than later doesn't help. I wish I could be there now!!!

In grocery shopping news, I got these OMG yummi Kashi bars with dark chocolate and coconut on top, omg omg omg there are so good. Low sodium, low fat, low cal-120 and are delicious. I've totally hanged up my fruits and vegies eating plan to incorporate grains like granola. I've also been having yogurt with granola in the morning, a granola for snack before gym time, then afternoon snack is an apple and a boiled egg, dinner-vegies and something with protein---thats only 2 nights a week (for example I had spinach and 2oz of salmon tonight broiled cause thats the healthiest) and for evening snack I munch on frozen grapes or some other fruit or snappeas or broccoli. And from doing all that and switching from just fruits and vegies I've managed to stay on track with my weight and still feel refreshed. Still eating under 700 calories though so at least Im not stuffing myself endlessly. Just feel up on granola.

Boiled eggs are so awesome! They are only 18 calories!!!!!! Without the yolk which is how I prefer them anyways so if you are looking for something to make the tummy stop growling and to actually feel you up without eating that much calorie intake...boiled eggs. Dude, they are insane! I don't eat more than 3 a day. Thats the highest I've eaten them, usually its only 1 a day. Boil up 5 or 6 and your set for almost the week :)


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A Look In The Life Of Edie

I meant to write in here sooner but I have just been so exhausted. Where to begin!? The day of my birthday from where we left off, I frantically checked the scale and thankfully had not gained any weight, Was still at 114lbs. Thank the Lord! Guess the throwing up helped...lol. Anyways, then went to see my boyfriend and he made for dinner homemade fries and other things that I didn't eat. Just some of the fries, which I know are the most weight gaining thing on the planet-Potatoes!- But they were yummy and I had to get something in my system. The following morning, weight was the same.

Oh, forgot to mention how my birthday actually went besides the eating portion. My boyfriend totally took my breathe away and surprised me with wine-which I sipped one glass slowly while he finished 4 beers- and we played board games and cards all night. It was really sweet. I was totally impressed how special he made my night. And then of course the bedroom part was amazing as per usual lol!

The next few days went by as normal. Intake was no more than 600 calories and I was slowly working my way up on signing up to the local gym. I started doing even more tummy exercises and butt lifts. And then by the strangest chance, I got a flyer in the mail from the local gym with a 5 day free pass and 1$ signup for the month coupons. So I took it as a sign and called to make sure I didn't have to pay anything upfront and viola! I went in there 2 days ago and have a week free pass cause the manager lady rocks and after that I will pay only 1$ for the first month. Along with 10$ for the unlimited tanning they have there.

It's great! Now I don't need to worry about tanning anywhere and paying outrageous amount of money, I can just go to my gym! And I have been going there everyday so far, yes Im on the 3rd day but I have been working out for at least 2 hrs each time I go. Its been so much fun and I push myself so hard.

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Walk In Angel's Shoes

 This weekend was the same as always. Sleep all day, party all night. No, I only wish I could. Instead I stay up all night trying to find something productive to do with my time. But in all honesty, what can be at night? So I stayed awake putting some finishing touches on my newest drawing while watching several movies. I hate that drawing... there just wasn't enough time to finish it. I tried to spend time with my boyfriend but he was too preoccupied with his xbox. Which is fine, I just wish we were more spontaneous. I wish we did things as a couple and actually built memories together. How we build the memories, I don't care. Take a drive to no particular destination. Wander the streets. Throw snowballs... anything. 

 I've been feeling down on myself for a while now. Ugly, fat, lonely... a failure at life in general. Of course, this does no justice to my relationship. Constantly in fear of my boyfriends feelings toward me. I wouldn't be surprised if he has lost interest in me. No longer finds me attractive. And the real reason he spends 99% of his free time playing xbox is because ...click here to read more